Euphoria (Arrangement Series Book 4) by King Ellie

Author:King Ellie [Ellie, King]
Language: eng
Format: azw3
Published: 2020-09-23T16:00:00+00:00

Bowie

I watched everything happen from our Bambi saving Phoenix’s life to her cursing the doctor out. I’ve never really seen that side of her much, but I love it. I love how protective she is, or rather that she’s become like. I couldn’t move my legs to go into the room. It’s like everything in me is locked up. I haven’t been the same since my biological mother passed away from loneliness. Although I never really understood what it was like to lose a mother, I didn’t get the chance to know it still affected me. Sort of stunted me in a way. That impromptu trip that my father and his wife, who I learned to call mother, made me take was for her funeral preparations.

My father lied and told me she died from the sickle cell anemia that she had but Mother told me it was from that and a mixture of loneliness. Her words were always “you see Bowie, dear. No one on this planet is meant to be alone. You may come into this world and leave alone, but it doesn't mean you live it alone. You need someone, anyone to numb the ache. I have your father but you, you’ll have no one. Just like your mother, you tried to take what was mine, I took what was hers. Now, you’ll both always suffer with the loneliness eating away at you.”

She was right, because when I came back, it ripped apart my world. I didn’t know how to mend the relationships that were broken so I ran away instead of facing it head on. I ran away from the skeletons in my closet, from everything and now, here I am, having to face one head-on. The moment I heard the machine flat-lining, I couldn’t think for myself. I ran towards the glass with Bambi but I wasn’t myself. I was on autopilot. I prayed for the first time in my life for my best friend to come back. For the first person who made the loneliness less lonely and much bearable. For the person who introduced me to two different loves the love of friendship and brotherhood and the love of my life. A love so profound, so deep, so worth risking everything. He deserved to live. He deserves everything. It doesn’t even matter what it is. “Open your eyes, Nix. Come on, brother. You can’t die like this. Not like this man,” I whisper. I shut my eyes and lay my forehead on the glass, feeling the tears I’ve never truly produced leave my eyes. My mind goes dark. It goes somewhere that I’ve never wanted it to go after I gave up fighting. All of my fights come back to me like some scenery and I relish in the pain that showed only through the bruises on my body. I grit my teeth as if I’m there. The hits that made me feel alive, that made me feel human again and then after, when I knocked the other one out.

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